As I embarked on my journey of recovery from grief, I gave myself ample space to relax and recover.

My symptoms – low energy, low desire and low appetite.

As the months went by, I became confused. Am I healing or procrastinating or lazy?

I wondered whether lying in bed, was becoming a problem and not a solution.

So, I tricked myself into getting out of the house to a co-working space for a week.

I immediately feel better.

Was healing done?

I feel terrible that I didn’t feel grateful or show gratitude when friends generously offered their advice, time, and presence.

I have a gratitude journal, I wrote it, yet gratitude didn’t come.

What I have learned, is that during burnout or grief, gratitude is not available because the emotional sensing tool is not working.

But it is okay to express appreciation, without feeling grateful.

There’s no need to blame myself.

Thank you for the reminder, Jeane.

The room bright

Penning words in my journal

Figuring my thoughts

Desire

The subconscious

Where would it lead me? I don’t know

I do it in hopes that I can thrive

I hope

It’s been a while since I last posted.

I hope you all been well.

In times of uncertainty, it is possible to envision and strive for a different situation.

This, in fact, is how everything around us is created.

As we encounter new challenges, we learn, brainstorm, make adjustments, and reach a new milestone. It is an energizing, upward cycle.

But when, if we don’t hit those milestones, this energy can run out. It is not something that can be easily restored through exercise, diet and sleep.

At such times, it may be necessary to take a retreat or an extended vacation.

Hope requires energy.

There is magic for magicians. And magic for the public.

What may appear as a simple trick to an outsider can be awe-inspiring for a magician deep in the craft.

The challenge arises when trying to please everyone and potentially missing the magic for someone.

Perhaps the key is to decide what is your magic for someone, rather than trying to please everyone.

PS Eric Chien performance is something special.